I've been so happy since I walked away
I never thought
that I could feel as great as I do today
'Cause you
were nothing but a big mistake
And life is wonderful, now
that I'm rid of you

Oh I must have been crazy to
have stayed with you
I can't believe I thought I was
in love with you
But now the scales have fallen I can
really see
And I say go to hell, 'cause that's
where you took me

Well, I've felt better since I
slammed that door
You always cramped my style, I never
noticed before
It's been a non-stop party since I flew
the coop
I can't believe I fell for such a loser like
you

And is it any wonder that I felt so blue
When I was always having to put up with you

Oh,
here we go again, just lay the blame on me
Don't say
another word, 'cause sweetheart, you're history

I know that you miss me really, bet you wish that you
still had me
You'll never find someone like me but
I've got no regrets at all

Because I've met
this girl and she's so good to me
She's really
beautiful, fantastic company
And, when I'm with her I
realise what love can be
Because she's fifty times the
person you'll ever be

Good luck, mister, do you
think I care?
Since you've been gone the offers have
been everywhere
I've got a million guys just lining up
for me
I've turned a corner, boy, my life is
ecstasy

Well, I've been in heaven since I walked
away
I never thought that I could feel as great as I do
today
'Cause you were nothing but a waste of space
And life is wonderful now that I'm over you

Over
you


(Ciao by Beautiful South)

Office-ial Goals (Pun Fully Intended)

Haha. Its not just a case of Certified Nerds we have here in this orange building ;)

'Dear friends,

A good afternoon to you. Being the good and helpful colleagues that we are, it is imperative that from time to time, we give of ourselves for the betterment of the bigger good. Our CME counterparts are in dire need of photographs that bring out the essence of teamwork, and as standard operating procedures in his great company, would like to keep costs low....in order to boost our bonuses and payraises.

So the plan is this: tomorrow at lunchtime, a group of guys will be playing soccer at the nearby basketball court, whilst a group of gals will be playing frisbee in the adjoining field. Snapshots would be taken randomly and freely, at any instance where our CME experts detect some semblance of teamwork. The session should take 30mins or thereabouts.

You are cordially invited to be part of this fun and meaningful activity, which would increase health, camaraderie and our pay packets. Please register your interest and enthusiasm soonest possible, and do feel free to forward this email to others in the company, as long as we don't get so many it seems like a fire drill at the basketball court instead. Thanks for your kind attention, dear comrades.'

Ain't Life a Circus and We're all mere Clowns?

Poetry In Motion

In the midst of kittycat wars that is happening to one of my closest friends, i realise that this week has shown myself to be culpable of stepping on the toes of others when push comes to shove. I realise that I am very protective of people close to me. It drives me mad to see strangers who judge, who react, who project their own issues onto innocent parties. But that very streak in me turns upon itself when others step on mine - and it comes out tenfold, all the more because i don't verbalise my discontent until the non-tolerance level looms upon the horizon, red lights begin to blinkblink and i know i'm better off in No-Man's Land. Because injured, cornered animals lash out at everything and anything. But i will apologise after the whole tirade, I will explain myself (though that might come in a rather belated fashion) and if i don't, trust me i'll be pretty remorseful for being harsh. And if i love you, i will make it up by surprising you when you least expect it.

In this vein, here's some 'bitchy' retorts i received in the office email that you can amuse yourself with. This place sure needs some from time to time with all sorts of third-party hagglers who refuse to meet deadlines as stipulated. Raaaah.

Thank you. We're all refreshed and challenged by your unique point of view.

The fact that no one understands you doesn't mean you're an artist.

This isn't an office; it's hell with fluorescent lighting.

I started out with nothing and still have most of it left.

Too many freaks, not enough circuses.

Which two letters in "NO" do you not understand?

***

Your patience with me melts my heart.

'Isn't she lovely,
made from Love'

~Stevie Wonder

***

i miss you, you notti misunderstood boi.

Ways To Negotiate Your Way Around Maths; The Smarty Pants Way (so now the kids wear the pants now huh?)

I'm much happier, chirpier, light-hearted and not weight down lately. I didnt quite realize tt until i spoke to darlingzhen. I bother to dress up a bit more. One day flightygirlylacy chic, another modern chinois, today Lolitaesque retro. My style's not being cramped. And that is just on the physical forefront. i don't need to bother feeling guilty subconsciously about parading my weakness for chocolates and having a larger-than-most appetite.

Elaine and i went to CandyEmpire. It was magical, sigh. The chocolates abound, I am so dead. In the end, i bought Belgium florentines, German wafflechocs and Willy Wonka Whipple Scrumptious Caramel Delight. Am i tantalising you? (erm with the chocolates i mean). I've yet to try Royce chocolates. I wanna be a food critic, amongst many other i-wanna-be's. Sometimes i feel like a Jack-of-All-Trades but Master-of-None. Anyway, to balance our purchases from the land-of-all-things-chocolate, we had Wasabi Prawn Salad at coffeeclub. I'm trying to have healthy shiny hair. So proteins are on my list - the oil from fatty fish mainly, salmon, tuna. And eat your veggies and fruits, they're the best things on earth besides chocolates, i-love-you-and-you-definitely-know-it hugs, all forms of loveletters from my Heart-to-Hearts, plays, films, books, musicals, God-soaking, Watson-Guardian-shopping, fantastic prose and blogs, re-reading the labels on facial products/vitamins just acquired, a good night's rest preferably by 12, japanese food, dim sum, suppers at Simpangbedok, tinkering around my cosycorner finding things to do . And lately, shopping for clothes. As in real-GIRLS-shop-till-they-drop kinda fashion. You said that i'm a late bloomer fashion-wise. Maybe, maybe :) It's also functional - ive (hohohoh) spending power at last with this job, plus well my clothes have been 'incinerated' for reasons some might be able to understand. well, another reason to have new clothes. Let's all grow moneyplants.

Grr, this sounds like your typical Friendster entries. Petrifying Zappyfying those neurons back. Recall, recall. Just ticking that mental list off my head. I could be a pain and intellectualise and twist this to say that the abovementioned quirks of mine are mere signifiers to point, to direct, to disclose, for 'easy categorisation/compartmentalisation' or pigeonholing (very Tara-speak) the person i am. anyways.

Zhen invited me (and i think shooby + tarn) to this vintage fashion show thing tonight but i've something on. So in the spirit of that, i'm wearing a flirty-fun babydoll dress complete with a headband to work today.

***

There's a lot of satisfaction seeing the manuscript you edit or the things you write go out in print. Hee.

anyway, let's tickle you with some original sent-in jokes from this kid's science mag (my name is in it as one of the editors!) ;

What do you get from a nervous cow?
- Milkshake!

What do you call an old ant?
- An antique!

What do policemen put in their sandwiches?
- Traffic jam!


haha. maybe i should collect all these jokes in my mental store and i'll be a fantastic mum reciting all these second-hand jokes and churn out a fantastic, humourous, witty kid in the process.

***

i want to start reading Haruki Murakami's Sputnik Sweetheart and Kafka on the Shore. And Time Traveller's Wife. Come come someone lend me soon.

***

Drifting into moonrivers make me smile. The horizons are higher and the water's incessantly bluer - One's own Secret Garden.

Make your metaphors work for you.

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Avalon - Testify To Love

All the colors of the rainbow, All of voices of the wind
Every dream that reaches out that reaches out
to find where love begins
Every word of every story, every star in every sky
Every corner of creation lives to testify

For as long as I shall live, I will testify to love
I'll be a witness in the silences when words are not enough
With every breath I take I will give thanks to God above
For as long as I shall live, I will testify to love

From the mountains to the valleys
From the rivers to the sea
Every hand that reaches out
Every hand that reaches out to offer peace
Every simple act of mercy
Every step to kingdom come
All the Hope in every heart will speak what love has done

***

JENFUR darling CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!! yay we have our very own air stewardess amongst us now ;)

I'm on the verge of crossing over to the Land-of-all-things Rainbows + IceCreams + StrawberryFields.
In my mind's eye, i already have. I dont know, there is this excitement, this nagging feeling of endless possibilities, of joy and happiness restored, of having girlietime with my "Old is Gold's" and "New-Found-Agains" - those i've never had the opportunity to know in a deeper way, having exited their lives prematurely.