will stop being an emo-wreck. if reality dislikes me and my guts, that doesnt mean i have to thrash reality around and parade it upon my chest like an injured badge of honour. no sirree', no thank you not me - afterall, my dear reality, would you be confounded to know that you are cognitively-constructed, that you happen to be afflicted with the forces of subjectivity? that what is being physically-perceived is but one aspect of you [reality], and if one finds a way to transcend and see beyond that which is a normative Real-ness - you lose, i win.

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a template for me, just in case i forget. wish i could carry my lappietop w me everywhere, my trusty notebooks are such a hassle now in view of the morphing, evolutionising technophobe-turned-techno-literati! but oh yes, i still don't quite engage with msn, no friend you. but blogspot, i friend many much.

TENTATIVE PLANS FOR DEC YIPPIE! HOLS '05

• LOCAL AUTHORS

- Alfian Saat, Cyril Wong

• INTERNATIONAL AUTHORS

- C.S Lewis, Chuck Palahniuk, Paulo Coelho [now currently on Milan Kundera's Identity]

• MY MEADOW-MAKER

- Oswald Chambers, Mary K.Baxter **rem to pack these for camp

• BLOG-STOPS [Theatre, Lit]

- qlrs.com, the2ndrule.com , inkpot.com

- [read reviews on past theatre performances and maybe get scripts?/commentaries] [verbal verbiage vomit by others mean fodder for your own creativity at 2ndrule.com] [which means you might want to start submitting smtg]

• FOOD-GALA-LORE

- [The French Stall] - 3-6 and 6-10pm, tues close, and belatedly but nevertheless, im jumping on the bandwagon to [Arab St]. wooo whee. p/s: Cafe Samar's food aint tt great, but ambience made me+ser+jen kinda trigger-happy and nostalgic i dunno why. tara, you're badly wanted. sob. will be thrashing out cafe haunts round spore on my own with my trusty backpack+books+umbrella+waterbottle and it'll be flyfreebird to the rescue - this is for emo-wreck vis-a-vis yours truly - m.e.

• FILM

- **update lib membership to premium so can borrow dvds - musicals + what-not! at esplanade

• MUSIC-OLOGY

- Junior College Band Fest [12 Dec, Esplanade] - **rem to get tix soon at sistic counters

• POLITICS

- skip past all and go straight to ST Commentaries, but not before devouring Life! [how i miss our daily ritual of newspaper-reading, me starting with Life! and you, with the front page and then exchanging it with much politeness, because you demanded that knowledge has to have its share of gravity and due respect]

• CORPOREAL-WELLNESS

- night runs, **indonesian lymphatic-drainage massages [check out oppo house, the new one or at siglap]

and, not forgetting PEACE BABY! Calvary's Christmas Production at outside Takashimaya on 21-23 Dec from 7-10pm - you gals better be coming aye. ill be abused and thrashed about onstage so dont miss that. kiddin. well, ill just be glad to see your presence, really ;)

will be gone for My-Meadow-Maker's (relegated to using code-words here so be smart) Camp from 5-10 Dec.

the hint of the whirlwind of activities leaves me excited. biding my hour till wed - now is tues 2am. one and a half days more. im not worried bout the exams, never been one to gung-ho bout them (unluckily enuf) - just worried about two-things else.