the last paper on wed is a real drag in my heart. i have been up, when im done revising for that paper (which takes up only 3 hrs max a day.ha), planning my holidays and coming up with phantom projects of my own. it is definitely God's grace that dec is in view, for i would not know how to transcend all this should it still be in the midst of sch term.

for now, i am biding my time till wed, biding the hours, waking up, deciding on breakfast, seeking out places to revise my soci paper, bringing along an extra read as a bonus/pat-pat ur doing good sha with your revision, keeping God close to me, going home in the evening, running to east coast at night just to see how far my legs can take me, strolling home along the canal, turning in with tears in my eyes but with a peace that surpasses any semblance of my understanding. the ocean was majestic yesterday, the vastness overwhelming and consuming - and knowing that i keep this in my heart - only faith, hope and love.

So here I am again
Willing to be opened up and broken
Like a flower in the rain
Tell me what have I to do
To die and then be raised
To reach beyond the pain
Like a flower in the rain
- Jaci Valesquez, 'Flower in the Rain'.