how would it be if i were to leave singapore for 2 years cos im based overseas? a year from now.

flyfreebird tendencies dictate these impulses, but someone once said that it must be coupled with these two feet bound to the ground, and in my heart i am projecting the relationships with the people i hold close to my heart as one of the most strongest forces disallowing such [selfish?is it a necessity to disregard such impulses?under what conditions and to what ends?] personal desires to materialize?

im not telling, and i face it, even to myself.

someone once wanted to go to australia to further the studies.
someone once wanted to travel the world.
someone once wanted to explore human relationships.
someone once wanted to free oneself from obligations,

not i, not i, but because of me.

we are mirrors of each other - bound by a tendency to imitate, to perfom the desires of the other, failing to allow oneself to smash the Mirror, to break free from expected roles and conventions.

the human mind interrogates, and in that liminal space, we wait for answers. Revelations from the Divine One to illuminate these stupid questions we mortals ponder upon. stupid, because of its circularity, and stupid, because it might not be along the path of His will for us.

foolish mortals, and i am all the more foolish for problematizing everything.